new pictures...

i'm going to update you with the newest pics of kayah. she is growing so much! she's already 11 lbs. this coming friday kayah starts at her new daycare! yes, we did get in the one i was hoping she'd get into. i was very happy to finally have that taken care of and feel so comfortable with it. i am back to work. i won't comment too much on it because it will make me depressed. i'm not liking it at all. i HATE leaving kayah...and i'm not really enjoying my job on top of it, either. it's just a bad combination. i just have to remind myself i get to be home every holiday and every summer. hopefully that will get me through.

anyway, here are a few new pics of the gorgeous baby kayah. she's almost 7 weeks now! can you believe it?!?

a real smile...

Monday, September 17th...a smile...a real smile! Apparently kissing her ten times in a row really fast on the cheek is pretty silly to Kayah. And now that I got a smile out of her I just can't help trying over and over to get another one. I'm also going to try to catch one with my camera so everyone else can share in the joy. She's got the CUTEST smile ever! Oh, another milestone...she graduated to size 1 diapers on her 1 month birthday. Fun, fun!

kayah's 1 month birthday is here...

One month old today! She is so beautiful. I love her so much. I have had the best month learning all about my little girl. She is amazing. My time at home with her is coming to an end quickly, though. Work is looming in the not-so-distant future. I thought I had found an in-home daycare for Kayah. The lady was very nice and it seemed like a really good situation. However, the day after giving the woman my deposit to hold Kayah's spot until I go back to work, she called saying that she now couldn't take Kayah. Very disappointing because I thought I had finally figured out where my little girl was going to spend her days away from me. But no. The lady was nice enough to call around to other in-home providers for me and found another woman with a possible opening for me to call. Come to find out, this new woman is actually one that I had originally wanted to have as Kayah's daycare provider, but I didn't think she had any openings, so I didn't even try calling her. I spoke with her on the phone and it sounds like she'll have an opening starting on October 5th, which is about the time that I'll need someone. Her program is awesome; she even has curriculum for infants and toddlers. She likes to do long-term care, so Kayah would grow up knowing her as almost a part of the family. She has a special plan just for teachers so Kayah's spot would be held through the summer even though she would be at home with me. It just seems like the best place for Kayah...much better than the first place even. I'm meeting with her next week, so say a prayer or two that things work out. I'll just keep saying the little prayer I've said my whole life, "If it was meant to be, let it be, or help me find my way." I know God & Josh will help me figure this out. I want Kayah to be in the safest, most nurturing environment that she can be in when I'm away from her.

I also started my Masters program last week. Seems to be going well so far. Kayah and I have a deal worked out. She keeps me up at night so that I can get my work done. Ha! This first class has a lot of busy-work, but I think it's just to get us acquainted with the whole on-line program so we are prepared for all of the classes that follow. I can't wait until next November when I can say I'm finished with my Masters! It'll be a lot of hard work between now and then, but I'm willing to do it for my family; for Kayah and I. I just have to make things work.

Now, I will leave you with the newest pictures of Kayah Luann. One of which you will find quite amusing, I'm sure.

3 weeks old...

My Kayah is 3 weeks old now. I can't believe how fast these 3 weeks have flown by! Well, I guess only in some sense time has flown, while in another it seems like it's been such a long time. For example, I look back at the pictures of myself laying in the hospital bed, waiting to see my little girl's face for the first time and I just can't believe that was 3 weeks ago! You always hear people say after they have a baby that it feels like that baby was always a part of the family; like they can't remember what it was like not having the baby. Well, I think I have to agree. It's hard to remember back to not having Kayah here with me...nor do I really care to remember back to not having Kayah here with me. I LOVE being her mommy. I LOVE having her in my arms staring up at me, or at my side kicking her little feet, or on my chest sleeping soundly. I wouldn't go back to "before Kayah" for anything!

Time is also flying by when I think about having to go back to work. I really don't want to go back. I really don't want to have to leave Kayah with someone else during the day...especially someone I don't know. And no, I haven't even found a daycare yet! It's a bit stressful, but I'm going to keep trying. If anyone knows of someone who does daycare in Omaha, please call me or email me to let me know! I really need some help!

Anyway, I'm enjoying my time with Kayah...every single second of time. It's amazing to be a mother!